Esperanza...

has been very demanding these last couple of weeks, but not in a negative way. Rather, It's been challenging me to get out of my comfort zone, reach out, talk to strangers, spread the word, do a bit of selling, which I have never been good at -an oddity given that I was born in Morocco, the land where commerce runs in the veins of the populace.

Otherwise, I am a busy doer. Even when I stop to contemplate, meditate, feel, and be, I am still a doer -and maybe the fact that Mars rules my birth-date has something to do with it. Driven, I am, always was. Competitive to a fault -I wonder who it is I am trying to impress? Am I looking for approval? Am I caught in a cycle that no longer holds any constructive purpose, repeating the same patterns out of habit, avoiding a little face-to-face with reality, as it is Now and Here? Although, that isn't absolutely true, the image I have just drawn for you is an extremely negative one -another pattern.

So, let us give credit where credit is deserved: change is here, and I am part of it, whether I acknowledge it or not. Already, healing is taking place, as I delve into a world where Spirit and Nature are one. A personal shamanic journey has been in the making for quite some time now, and, while I profess no occult powers, I have to say that Spirit is guiding my steps -the skeptic in me winces, but even he cannot deny this statement. Serendipity is at work, opening unexpected doorways, unexpectedly connecting me with others who too are seeking the way. Slowly, knots are coming undone, as I err by sacred sites where ancient people were buried, by water, over earth, amongst tree, hawks, crows and other animal spirits guiding my steps, in a world of symbols and intuitive ceremonies -demented? Very probable, but would I want it otherwise?

I remember telling Noor how much I disliked the congestion of woods. Now I walk amidst bushes, brambles and trees as if it were my playground, my labyrinth... Funny how blind-sided we can be... Funny how much we can change...

To Noor -always ahead, always clear. You inspire and we try to follow.