Somedays are...

harder than others, don't know why, just the way it happens, from the onset, before even setting the wrong foot on the ground, I'd say the feeling grips somewhere above the body's center of gravity, and it is tempting to say very close to the third Chakra -if you believe in Chakras, and so I could easily try analyzing this sensation of great unease, of being so totally out of center, with an inkling that so much of what is done, pursued, embraced, doesn't really fit the individuality that is floating within, as the body cringes at the taste that accompanies the sudden realization that whatever path one has been on is in fact, and obviously, so, so, incompatible with one's natural aspirations.

Then the body becomes a binding cage, from which one can see the light, but is unable to reach, and be one with it. Silly though that such as feeling should arise when the foolish master, for years on by, spent many hours patiently whispering to my skeptical ear, "The light you seek is already within, so brilliant and so close to the source of everything that is, was and will be."

The message is there, a seed taking its time to germinate. Perhaps, it needs watering and tending, believing and allowing... I don't know, but I sure am investigating.

Be well and stay on the path you feel is closest to your heart -only you can tell which on that might be, and if you stray don't be too hard on yourself, please don't, it's pointless, could be construed as a waste of time and energy. Do a little dance, laugh at your mistake, retrace your step, and rejoin the path of your journey.

Lost again and again.

P.S: On icy lake Mendota, I meandered long enough that my footprints drew a Yin and Yang symbol, a sinuous wave, a circular labyrinth, an infinity sign. That was yesterday. This morning, I stopped back and found all of it still there, and so I followed my own steps, seeking to meet myself, within, wishing for inner-unity, completion, forgiveness and awakening, in the name of Love and Harmony, the four elements, Air, Light, Earth and Fire, my guiding energies, melding within a center that is in Harmony with the Whole.